Big things make us itch; they seem like small things, like things we should be able to do something about, to swat away like gnats, but they persist, because they really are things that need a lot more of our attention than we’re currently allotting. We are tormented, affected, and not aware of how really major the impulses we’re influenced by; in the parlance of noir novelist Raymond Chandler, we’re feeling like we’re in the midst of “one of those hot dry Santa Anas that come down through the mountain passes and curl your hair and make your nerves jump and your skin itch. On nights like that every booze party ends in a fight. Meek little wives feel the edge of the carving knife and study their husbands’ necks. Anything can happen.” The surprising part is that it happens so suddenly, and though we’re focused on ideas and the meaning behind events, we’d be smarter at this point to take things at face value; if we don’t we risk loss, injustice, and dangerous circumstances.
I don’t mean to make today’s influences sound so ominous; I’m simply trying to convey the elusive, and potentially impulsive, nature of it all. Following our impulses, what we want, lust for, long for, carries a price, if we go for it directly, without considering consequences–and if we pause long enough to consider what might befall us as a result of our desire-driven choices, then we are likely to see that the road between ‘here’ and ‘there’ isn’t quite as straight or obstacle-free as we first thought (Vesta sesq Zeus, Mars semi-sq Pluto, Venus conjoined Sedna, Sun enters Gemini and qnx Black Moon Lilith)
Today’s word image is a sealed letter you thought already sent, found at the back of a drawer. That message was never received by the addressee, and yet you’ve likely conducted your interactions with them as if it were. Consider the impact of not having said what you thought you’d said; does it need to be said now? Or are things good the way they are? Sometimes forgetting to ‘send our message’ is the best thing we could have done.
We’ll close today with another quote from Raymond Chandler: “To say goodbye is to die a little.” So Mars semi-square Pluto! Enjoy your Friday!