Did I say “sure of ourselves”? By that I mean, NOT sure of ourselves! Everything that should give us confidence instead makes us feel unsteady, and each unique positive thing about us seems to hold a corresponding negative that may be horrifying, embarrassing, or unflattering. Feedback from the social order or ‘the facts’ only makes us more sure that every ‘bad’ thing about us is showing and we can’t see it ourselves. And worse, we seem to have an internal war raging, where the more passive sense of Self is facing off against the aggressive, selfish, or compulsive part. Sadly, this makes us think the worst of ourselves, to see ourselves as at best flawed, and at worst downright evil–don’t be silly, we are neither, nor do we carry some horrible gracelessness that shames–instead, we need to understand that the problem today isn’t in our character, our Soul’s make-up or history, or our previous acts–it’s in our viewpoint.
The lens through which we inspect ourselves today is so distorted that loving objectivity is twisted in the fun-house mirror; we can’t hope to see ourselves clearly (and we see others receive our projections of whatever negatives we can’t own ourselves), but the good news is that as long as we know our perceptions are either ridiculously exaggerated versions of our fears, imprecisely-received feedback from the social sphere, or complete misunderstandings, then we’ll be able to withhold our own judgment, humbling ourselves enough to know, we don’t know (Uranus contra-parallel Black Moon Lilith, Jupiter parallel Sedna, Venus enters Gemini, opp Mars, and qnx BML, Sun contra-parallel Pluto)
Today’s word image is a pink toy phone. Someone is telling us our communications are immature, when they are likely only couched in the feminine vernacular of receptivity. A message of gentleness is misleading others into thinking we are not strong, not developed, and not capable; just because we are listening, open, non-invasive, does not mean we are weak.