‘Mariana in the South’ By John William Waterhouse 1897 {{PD}}

We know we’re being wounded by what we’re not admitting to, whether that’s an emotion we find unacceptable, a Self-destructive behavior, or a matter we refuse to acknowledge. We know this, we even see how it’s putting up obstacles and making our own effective actions more difficult, and yet, we’re still unwilling to recognize the poison; we continue to sip, pretending it isn’t abrading us from the inside out. Why? Total concentration, whether we realize it or not, is on gaining or achieving what we desire–there’s no mental room for anything else. That means we are refusing to sufficiently value our own inventiveness, uniqueness, our originality, our ability to respond in the moment, refusing to value what makes us who we are. We are too bent on looking for answers, for satisfaction, out there, when the only effective approach is to find ourselves not just worthy, but the true source of what nourishes, attracts and gives Love and resources, of what makes us part of a living, breathing Universe.

(Chiron semi-sq Black Moon Lilith, Saturn sesq Juno, Venus opp Uranus, Merc nov Zeus)

‘Mercury Thermometers’ Photo By Zwager {{PD}}

Today’s word image is a thermometer. What is it you need to ‘take the current temperature’ of? And how long has it been since you gave this needed scrutiny?

We may persist today, on a quest that’s not truly our own. ‘Sir Galahad and the Quest for the Holy Grail’ By Arthur Hughes 1870 {{PD}}

The funny thing about today is that we may feel strong, capable, ready to raise the roof to get what we want–but there is a hidden danger lurking under a layer of bravado (which we may mistake for genuine confidence): it’s that we have already been told, loud and clear, that what we’re aiming for in the moment will not be ours. That’s a hard thing to accept, that something we’ve held dear, dreamed of, and were fairly confident was within reach will never arrive, and we’ve already received this message, the dangerous part being we’ve managed to ignore it. If we insist on continuing our quest, the Universe may step up and put serious, even insurmountable obstacles in our way–and these might have a negative effect in other areas, because we’re daring the Powers-That-Be: I don’t have to listen to you, I want this! And that’s when we are struck by lightning, swept away in the flood, lose our wallet, fall for the scam, marry the wrong person–because we are so sure we know better than the Universe. Oh no, we don’t. We have mistaken someone else’s goal, prize, accomplishment, title, position, or dream for our own. We have been carried off by an idea of Love that is not who we are. Once we admit that, we make room for the dream that’s really ours, the one that suits us down to our toes.

Possibly in addition to this mistaken quest, there is a particular difficulty with matters of Love or Money, or in mistaken values, where with that last we have been honoring something that doesn’t deserve our honorable treatment. In these areas, it’s a matter of ridding ourselves of illusions or delusions, or admitting we’re being lied to. Again, not a pretty picture, but a necessary one, if we are to get to the real Love, Money, or atmosphere we truly resonate with.

Today’s aspects play nicely into our Cinderella Point discussion, which I’ll post a second part on shortly.

(Ceres parallel Zeus, Uranus sq Vesta, Saturn sxt Ceres, Venus sesq Neptune)

Today’s word image is a frightening figure with a ludicrous hairstyle. If not for the comical do, this dark being would be really scary (and if you’ve dreamed about something like this, it’s even more apropos, in terms of representing illusion). What in your life is presenting as formidable, acting intimidating and dangerous, making you worry or actually fearful? Look more closely. There is some detail, some ‘tell’, that will let you know you don’t have to take this entity or environment nearly as seriously as you have been. You’re free to see him/ her/ it as it really is.

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And now a musical interlude in the spirit of today’s theme–

‘A Storm on a Mediterranean Coast’ By Claude-Joseph Vernet 1767 {{PD}}

When both fantasy and the real world seem harsh and inhospitable, where ya gonna go? You’ll find out today; here are a few suggestions: consciously act to support or further the well-being of one or more individuals, organizations, or matters you honor and find sacred–use your current position, status, or ‘reach’ to affect a positive outcome; put your attention on the future, and let what you want to have happen guide what you do now; or, review the past and either an instance of healing or of using/ acquiring skills that make your life more meaningful today (no action required except memory for this last). It’s a time to take refuge, in some sense; no need to feel guilty or to force yourself out into the fray–there’s plenty of time for (but again, no real need for) that, in days to come.

(Neptune sesq and the Sun trine NN, with Sun also trine Chiron, Vesta trine Juno, Saturn sq Pallas)

‘The Tantrum’ By Francisco de Goya y Lucientes CCO

Today’s word image is tradition disrupted. Expect something you count on as tradition, done every time there’s a particular event or gathering, to be un-doable this year. It’s a gauge, a kind of test, as to your ability to still go forward joyfully, to adapt, be flexible, and embrace something new. Be inventive in your response, and don’t allow bitterness or the shrill voice of, ‘But that’s how it always is!’ and the expectation that it still should be to ruin what otherwise can be the best event or gathering of its kind yet.